Pullin’ Through

October 15th, 2003

Well, I'm definitely feeling better than I was yesterday....I want to extend a big thank you to Stina, Laura, Heather and Alex for helping me through that mess. You guys are awwwwesome! :) I just got out of taking a blah-y Art History I test, which was ok. I can't really say how I did though...its one of those iffy (but hopeful) situations, hehe. I'm sitting here in the cafe, got myself a toasted bagel with cream cheese and a cafe mocha. Yum-ness! ^.^

Currently listening to Free Falling by Tom Petty. My Dad took my Mom skydiving once way back when I was in like 2nd grade and another guy who jumped with them had a camera attached to his helmet. After the jump he made a video of them zooming around in the sky to this song. :) I'm freeeee faaalllinnnggg!!! Nice! :D

Alrighty, here are my Wednesday Memes! Have a lovely day! :)

Lulu's Lines
TRIGGER 1::: There was a time...... when I was truly faithful, truly thankful for the things I have in my life. I remember it because it was just such an awesome feeling, you know? To know that I wasn't alone, wasn't just running around the world without a purpose. It's hard to find a spiritual identity sometimes when you have the world tossing petty things at your feet. Satan makes those things look so good...like chocolate cake...mmm...which is sinful in itself. ::wink:: But seriously, today I feel very much at peace with myself. I really hope nothing happens today that will throw all that out the window like it has before. I can think of a couple situations that might complicate things...but we'll just have to wait a few hours and see.
TRIGGER 2::: If I was ever............ to find a person who was actually honest with themselves, and was honest with me, then I think I would just cry or something because of the initial shock and feeling of happiness all rolled into one. Because I deserve the truth, and everyone else deserves the truth. So can't the truth be real in a relationship? Can't everyone be realistic and listen to both their heart and mind instead of one or the other? Because your mind will tell you the logical choice to make and your heart will tell you to make a decision according to how you feel at that moment. If you just listen to your mind then you might miss something wonderful, because sometimes the logical choice isn't always the right choice. If you listen only to your heart then you'll always be swept away into whimsical dreams of things that really aren't real and you'll just end up getting hurt time and time again. It's a difficult thing trying to listen to both your heart and mind...but it's possible. At least, that's what I think.

Wednesday Whatevers
1. What is the sluttiest/most revealing thing you've ever worn? Umm....sorry guys I don't really wear "slutty" or revealing things. I'm serious...its tshirts and jeans for me most of the time. Does that honestly disappoint anyone? Heh...
2. What are the measurements of a perfect body, in your opinion? Uh...in my opinion it really doesn't matter. Because each person in the world is beautiful and perfect to someone because everyone is different. So judging on looks is just pointless.
3. What is/will be your secondary education, if any? As in college? Wellll...I'm currently already into my secondary education then. GO KNIGHTS! :D

What's On?
What's On your bookshelf Right Now? Hmm...trying to remember since I'm not at home right now, hehe. My class textbooks, all the current books from the Left Behind series, books by Shane Johnson, some Bibles, diaries/journals, sketchbooks, a lot of Chicken Soup books, a few sci-fi/adventure books, The Killer Angels by Michael Shaara, some photo albums...ummm....that's all I can remember right now. :)

Random Question
Today is National Poetry Day. I think we should all write a short poem for today! The following is Verse 2 of the song I wrote yesterday to try and express how I felt during an emotional crisis:

my thoughts are constantly spinning threads i cannot describe
the guilt that i feel overflows and i drown in my sorrow
do you think i can make it myself swimming against this tide
or will my heart still be hollow with this emptiness come tomorrow


i feel like an incomplete verse of a song that will never end
my weaknesses keep me from finishing the words that i choose
and this sleep is so deep i don't think i can keep on trying to pretend
oh all i've been doing is fighting a battle that i'll probably lose

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otto Oct 15, 2003

Hi Mel. I found your blog through Random Questions and What’s On…..Glad I hopped in! A new photo meme, eh? I think I’ll share the link on my blog. Photo memes help me to challenge my creativity. Good luck with it! :)